Setelah kamu pergi
Aku punya litany baru
“I’ll be ok, I’ll be all right, I’ll be fine”
yang kuucapkan berkali-kali setiap kali aku ingat kalau kau tak ada bersamaku lagi
aku mencoba memahami kepergianmu
aku berusaha menerima ketakmampuanku untuk bersamamu
Every night before sleep I make myself promise not to dream about you.
Every morning right after I wake up I swear to myself not to think about you.
Every day I chant the same affirmation again and again.
But how can I not dream about you when my brain is full with memories of you.
How can I not think about you when every single part of this city reminds me of you
I’ll do whatever it takes to erase you from my mind
If only I have to…
